Interiority

Hello all and happy 2020!!! I hope this year is off to an expansive start for everyone.  For me, I have been feeling 2020 calling in transformation and new beginnings… all from within myself.  I started this blog 5 years ago with a passion for travel, finding places to be embraced, to experience adventure and connection.  I found travel to curate new wonder and perspective. I still feel in my heart that the nomadic soul wandering life is aligned for me going forward… but as I dive deeper into my own being, I am choosing to share my personal inward journeys on this platform.

So today is the day I am saying YES, the day that I am choosing to be fully transparent and share from my heart.  Today I am owning that I am enough, that my words, my voice and sharing my inward journeys has purpose.  My writings now are my online journal for all to read, I know there is expansion to come from having the courage to share. If any of my experience resonates with anyone reading this then I believe this platform is being used in service to create connection, relatability and to remind us, that we are not alone.

In 2016 I wrote a blog post about why I choose a word of the year. I wanted to take a moment to revisit how choosing a word of the year has now become my lighthouse. 2020 will be my 9th year choosing a “word of the year”. I first found this mindful and intentional practice from attending a small biz program that my biz partner (my Mom) and I were involved in. We were asked to choose a word of the year for our company… not a word that would create external validation but instead a very internal word, so it would connect and illuminate the heart space of our business. My mom and I were all over it as the creation of our little toffee business was based on the foundation of our LOVE. This simple tool has been so impactful that I shared with my husband, now he and I both choose a new word every year. Also, I have a group of girlfriends who also have joined in on choosing their own words. What’s beautiful about the whole process is that it creates community; we all share our words and our reasoning why we have chosen the word. Then often, my husband’s, my friend’s or my Mom’s words will show up for me… I will stop, pause and receive what is making its way into my consciousness. It always brings a smile and warmth from within as I can feel the energetics of my loved ones with me.  The new word chosen each year supports the existing words, creating building blocks to our own foundational growth.  If you already are choosing a word of the year and this is in your practice, I am honored to connect with you and would love to hear your word for 2020. I would love to hear why you chose it, or did the word chose you? If this is new to you “welcome”, please join in and see/feel how choosing 1 word a year can shift your perspective and build new awareness.

My word for 2020 is “Interiority” which really is quite fitting as I am shifting my blog writings from external travels to my personal inward journeys.  Interiority is Psychological existence. Inner Being. The quality of being interior or inward. This word found me back in early Nov 2019. I came across it on an IG story and instantly was drawn it! Honestly, I had never heard of Interiority before. I took a snapshot of the IG post on my phone so I wouldn’t forget the word, then I looked up the definition and BAM, I knew that was my word.  As a matter of fact, I went into work that day and told my Mom, I have my word for 2020! She eagerly said, well… “what is it”? I shared my word with her… she too had never heard of Interiority before. And yet once I communicated with her what it means and how it “feels” to me, she and I both knew this word found me with “purpose” … FYI, purpose is my Mom’s word for this year.

Engineering the outside world can create comfort and convenience.  Only engineering your interiority can create wellbeing. – Sadhguru

Journal entry- Jan 17th, 2020: To start off my inward journal writings, I’d like to share about my ongoing personal healing journeys.  For about 12 years I have been seeing a therapist to support the strong pull I was receiving to go within, to find and believe in my core values and self-worth, qualities I had lost in my early 20’s. From working with my therapist, I have a deeper understanding of myself by diving into my feelings, sharing openly and without judgment. Also, letting go of old limited self-beliefs, lack of self-respect. By navigating my family origins and relationships I continue to find spaces to heal and wounds awaiting to be seen and nurtured. I am working on accepting myself for the first time as whole even with all my flaws. So much of this is like finding breadcrumbs to a path being shown bit by bit. Though the inward navigation isn’t always easy, I have received massive awakenings finding my way back to me. This process has asked me to remain open to the unknown, not allowing fear to keep me small as it once did.  This is an ongoing evolution journey for me, it’s somewhat of a dance where I will miss-step, stumble and forget. Having a supportive partner like a therapist, coach or guide to hold the space and reflect assists in remembering and find my way back to my authentic self. I’ve always been extremely sensitive, my own emotions easily would surface, and I can feel other people’s emotions deeply, I never quite understood all the “feels” that I embodied. As I got older, I would try to hide my emotions and sensitivities just so I could fit in and not feel so deeply. So much of my uniqueness and gifts had been covered up or numbed by my choosing to do so.  I created armor to be protected, to not be fully seen, all because of my own insecurities and miss-judgment of myself. There is much more I will be share and more to come to my next journal entry.

Inward supportive Tools: I feel that podcasts are a wonderful resource to support growth and to become inspired. Podcasts are full of honest and real conversations with people sharing about their induvial life journeys and knowledge. Below I’m sharing one of my favorite Podcasts by my best friend, Danica Patrick. If you are looking for an inspiring podcast, I highly suggest subscribing to Danica’s Pretty Intense Podcast and enjoy all that comes thru. Link to subscribe to Pretty Intense Podcast: www.podcasts.apple.com

Danica birthed Pretty Intense Podcast into this world in 2019. Her podcast is full of immersive convos full of wisdom shares, fitness/health education, mental wellness, spiritual growth, music medicine, astrophysics, and astrology. Among Danica’s guests that she interviews are Dr. Joe Dispenza, Gloria Steinem, Trevor Hall, Neil deGrasse Tyson, Gabby Reese, Aaron Rodgers and, Debra Silverman! Seriously, there is a vast broad spectrum of wisdom shares that is so connective for everyone.  One of Danica’s superpowers is TRUTH. She has the innate ability to see, feel and share the truth, whether it’s her truth or those around her… it certainly can feel “Pretty Intense”! Danica is also the first to admit that she is on this ongoing evolution journey with us, learning, healing and growing. It’s why she created her Podcast so she can receive guidance, education from her incredible guests and share with us all. Her truth superpower also lights up my truth, she can always sense if I’m playing small. She will also call forward my truth, really creating an activation within me to stretch outside of my comfort zone! I will say this… Danica is one of my igniters who is helping me shift communication to just those who are in my “small circle” to expand with everyone. To give me a little push, Danica had the idea to have me on her podcast, not to be interviewed but for us to share our open heart, soul flow conversations.  Boy, not only was I honored to be invited on her Podcast, but I found a way to speak using my true voice, disconnected from fear and filters. Danica literally flipped on a light switch for me and well, I’m choosing to stay bright, to stay connected and to not hide in my little safe cocoon. In our soul flow convos Danica and I share about our life, day to day challenges, what’s been hard for us and how we find inner strength and clarity thru growth, vulnerability during transitional times.

To wrap up this post, I’d like to thank you all for your support and patience as I’m finding way during this auspicious time.  I have a vision to fully transform OnWord Journeys into a healing online portal with the intention for community connection. Not sure how or when the full rebirthing will happen but I’m going at my own pace, to make sure that the vision I have is rooted in authenticity and aligned with divine timing.

My OnWord Journey shares are coming from within, beyond and my actual life journeys… a balance and blend of my soul guidance along with my human experience.  My goal in shifting OnWord Journeys to my interior shares is to offer a holistic perspective that is connective, igniting and healing.  I am elated to be taking this next step in my life and doing so with all of you, as we all are on our own unique journeys inward and onward…

With Abundant Love & Light,

Stacey

Connective links:

Danica Patrick Website: http://www.danicapatrick.com/

Subscribe to Pretty Intense Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/podcast

Pretty Intense YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel

One Word Book: http://jongordon.com/books/one-word/

4 Comments

  • Reply Jenny Hanson January 20, 2020 at 8:08 pm

    This is such a beautiful post. Your words resonated deeply with me and brought tears to my eyes. It is not easy to leave that safe place behind, but as I was recently reminded, a butterfly cannot return to its cocoon I am likewise in the midst of rediscovering my spirit & trying to find a more balanced way of navigating this mystical world I have begun to discover. I am trying very hard to use this uncertainty and fear of the unknown to fuel me forward instead of allowing it paralyze me in place. Thank you for the reminder that I am not alone.

    • Reply Stacey Leigh Barnes February 1, 2020 at 6:40 pm

      Hi Jenny, THANK YOU for your beautiful open heart share… I resonate so deeply with your words. “Balanced way of navigating this mystical world”… yes I am right there with you! Though this process is not easy and feels full of uncertainty, I can say this… I wouldn’t go back to my stages of conforming to fit in. I have been working on feeling more ease as I “trust” in the process. If fear arises, which honestly it always does for me, I’m choosing to communicate with the fear instead of remaining in fear, really building a relationship with fear. Using fear as my teacher, I have found new strength within myself, connecting with my souls knowing & guidance. A tool that I have learned to support this communication is Soul journaling, so when I feel fearful, uncertainty, confusion I will find time to get quiet and ask my soul simple, strait forward questions, I close my eyes and listen. She speaks and I write down without judgement her words. I have found this communication with my soul to be so supportive in navigating these unchartered waters. I highly recommend Elisa Romeo book, Meet Your Soul. You can also book a soul session with Elisa, she is the one who taught me about soul journaling and truly has opened my heart to feel and embody my authentic essence https://www.elisaromeo.com/. Jenny, you have begun your journey back home to your true heart knowing. YOU ARE on your authentic path, beautifully re-birthing into your true radiance… xo-Stacey

  • Reply elisa January 21, 2020 at 4:03 am

    So much YES here!!!! I love you sharing your heart and am so excited to watch this space. So excited to see you soon and have long Soul conversations and transmissions with you. Love you!

  • Reply Stacey Leigh Barnes February 1, 2020 at 6:49 pm

    Thank you Elisa! I’m so looking forward to our connecting, Soul transmissions & communications. LOVE YOU! See you soon! xo-Stacey

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