September writings
Change is in the air, externally with the seasons changing and internally with shifts in our lives, within our perspectives and our very being. The question is, how do we invite the shifts of change instead of fighting to keep comfortable, sameness. For myself personally, I am experiencing a shake up in both my external and internal reality. So, my writings arrive with truth, acknowledgement, and a dose of surrender.
For me, change is met with anticipation and drive to try and control the unknown future. Ever since I was a young girl my family and I have moved to new states every 2-3 years. My Mom always would evoke optimism with a new home, school, friends, and places to explore. My mom is and always has been the bedrock of my family. She arrives with truth, transparency, and LOVE… as a young one with consistent uncertainly within our family, my mom’s foundational guidance has been my trusted source to flow with change.
The saying “what you resist persists” is so true. Even though I have been raised in always changing environments, I still can feel my self-holding on tightly in preparation for the unknown of change. I hold on to control. Meaning if I can control what the unknown can look like, new home, new career, new conversations, relationships… then I feel a sense of ease and accomplishment. But the truth is, control is my coping mechanism. Control is the opposite of surrender and though my mind goes into auto pilot with control, I am working on creating a new healthy behaviors so I can “let go” and trust through heart knowing.
Amidst this Sept my husband and I received the news that our long-term rental in Colorado is being sold. We are curranty looking for a new rental home, which is quite the task in this little Colorado town. I am feeling all my feelings and have brought in my practices to cultivate fluidity, but once again I feel my need to control very present. As I ride my emotional waves, I know in my heart our next chapter is upon us. We have opportunity to shift and pivot with flexibility. This is a choice to change my old coping ways from controlled to surrender… and to trust all will unfold as it should. When I close my eyes and loosen my grip on what once was, I honor the present with gratitude, glimpses of hope and wonder drop into my consciousness.
The power of communication, speaking your concerns, fears, discomfort creates detachment, acknowledgment. My husband and I have been in deep continual communication with this shift in change. I have spoken to loved ones, I have journaled and now I am sharing my writings here.
I have been shown time and time again, once I release control… everything falls into place. It takes patients and trust from my heart.
“It is normal to feel down, tired, and emotionally exhausted when you are going through a big transition, especially when you have to let go of something good for the chance of something better. Great changes are not meant to be easy; they arise to inspire your growth.” -The Way forward: Yung Pueblo
So today as I am writing, I am taking accountability for my desire to control, I am choosing to embrace change. If change is presenting itself to you in this season, how are you navigating your feelings, emotions, and behaviors? Self-inquiry and curiosity provide deeper insight into our wellbeing and connectivity.
Here’s to always evolving… change inspires and creates growth. May we all give ourselves grace as we navigate our journeys inward and onward.
With love and light,
Stacey
Below are two podcasts episodes that found their way to me this September and feel very supportive in this season of change.
Podcast-connective listens
Expanded Ep. 266: How To Break Low Self-Worth Habits with Nicole Neuroscience
The Rich Roll Podcast: Steven Bartlet- Outside The Box Lessons On Mindset, Ambition, Vulnerability & What Matters Most
